Over the last month or so I have become aware of a growing trend within myself. I am angry and irritable. More so than I have ever been. My own wife has made the same observation to me more than a few times and I have thus far refused to acknowledge this. It has come to a point though that I cannot deny it any longer as in moments of reflection I can see how it clouds my ability to exist and see the beauty in the moment.
In all honesty I have always been a grumpy cynic. To those of you that know me, this admonition comes to no surprise. However, over the last year I can truly say that it has gotten much worse. I think that in many ways, the nature of my work has altered my frame of mind. In this job you see people at their worst. People do not call 911 when they are having a good day. Combine that with the rampant abuse of emergency services by crappy people and long hours with little sleep and it can be a recipe for a crappy attitude. Somehow I allowed this to come home with me.
In light of this fact I am making a conscious effort to take my own advice and let it all go. Exist in the moment and be free of the bullshit that I see on a daily basis.
Self reflection is a powerful tool if you can accept the truth. Sometimes you suck. Good news is you can change that.
I made add more to this but I think this will suffice for now.
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