Concerning myself:
1) I like plans. In fact, for some reason, I have grown so attached to the concept of having a plan of action that I get anxious without one...even if that plan involves just staying the course.
2) I don't like staying the course. Over my adult life, I have come to realize that I dislike staying in a situation or place. I set a plan of action, see it through, and then as soon as I achieve it I immediately begin setting my sights on something else. Forget resting on my laurels. I don't take enough time to even acknowledge them. I can't sit still.
While these two attributes have their good points, they have primarily served to detract from my life. For the most part, they have kept me from enjoying what joys I have around me in the present. There is nothing wrong with wanting to better one's standing or lot in life, but to focus so rigidly on the future leads one to ruin.
Concerning my future plans:
I still want to get my RN license. I briefly considered other areas of healthcare, but RN still seems to be the most sound. That will be down the road, though. For now, I am damn near determined to STOP obsessing over the planning and start living again. Time to support my wife and help her get her own career started. Does it mean that funds will be tight due to the horrendous pay that medics make? Yes. But I will have time, and that is far more important. Time to be a husband and friend. Time to enjoy my folk. Time to create. Time to be me instead of a worker drone.
In Heathenry, time spent with friends and family is a spiritual affair. When your plans and obsessions keep you away from taking part in that, you invite a certain kind of soul sickness into your life. It's high time I remember that.
Sisu.
While these two attributes have their good points, they have primarily served to detract from my life. For the most part, they have kept me from enjoying what joys I have around me in the present. There is nothing wrong with wanting to better one's standing or lot in life, but to focus so rigidly on the future leads one to ruin.
Concerning my future plans:
I still want to get my RN license. I briefly considered other areas of healthcare, but RN still seems to be the most sound. That will be down the road, though. For now, I am damn near determined to STOP obsessing over the planning and start living again. Time to support my wife and help her get her own career started. Does it mean that funds will be tight due to the horrendous pay that medics make? Yes. But I will have time, and that is far more important. Time to be a husband and friend. Time to enjoy my folk. Time to create. Time to be me instead of a worker drone.
In Heathenry, time spent with friends and family is a spiritual affair. When your plans and obsessions keep you away from taking part in that, you invite a certain kind of soul sickness into your life. It's high time I remember that.
Sisu.
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